Lonely Ostara & Easter without Loves

Hello to my dearest charms, and welcome to my new article, which based on the Holidays if you are alone. I have never been alone that period, since I have a normal relationship. However, I was alone before without friends or partners. I spent my whole life with my parents, like now. I would not like to be ungreatful, because they are healthy and strong, maybe their hearts are sick because of their political thoughts, anyway "everybody have skeletons in their wardrobe", I will not make you boring with my personal bullshits.

This is a pay for all mistakes and stuborn steps I know, and I have to accept the situation. I do not know, when I can see my partner and my second family again. I am really suffering now. However, they feel good too, and did not get the COVID-19 nor do I got. So I am happy for that they stay at home and keep the rules in.

How can I ignore that feeling? Maybe this time have to ignore the communications with him and push  him away to not aching my heart. But this is impossible, because he is my bestfriend too, game partner and working partner, his life is bond to mine without any paper. This is a natural and unbreakable knot, from the time we started to our relationship 8 years ago, and I really do not know how to live without him again. He always in my mind. Our meeting was a cosmic thing, like it was written in the big book. He is my half part and he tought to me a lot of things. He showed me the celtic path and woke up my feelings to find myself to find my real roots. That's why I started to celebrate acient celtic celebrations.

The Ostara , when celebrating the nature and trees rebirth. Basicaly, that time as same as the spring solistice or Equinox on the 20th of March. This is connected to the volunteer project as climate  activist. So if I not choose the new way, I will not be a real activist, who care for the others and the Earth. This is a real, meaningful, true knot. However, he is keeping away from himself the climate topics, because of his work, but he always protected and supported me to do, what I really want and really belive in.

Now I am alone, but I can not be patience anymore. He was my brake on my bike if I need to stop. But I really fed up with to waiting for miracles and helps from the God for us in this terrible time. But the truth is there is no God and He will not finish the work for us.  What we got now is time, not much to understand and try to change our personal life, to not lie to ourself anymore and find that really need us. I always have to waiting for my turn but, the possibility post phoned more times. I had no time for my dreams and plans, but now I started to write my first book. And I finnished my first interview in climate topic, but I really need a platform to show it everybody. 

Yeah, I know that this a hard time for every magazines and pages and newspapers. But I made a valuable report, so I would like to ask you to find the best one,  share to every people and read. Because this could be a medicine and help, who suffers from climate depressions. 

So I really hope that I will find a way to help you and get informations from professionals.