Live well-Laugh often-Love Much : St. Patrick's Day in a cage

Hello my dear friends and followers. I started to live at home, like a hikikomori, this sound ridicilous, but this is the best way to avoid the COVID - 19. Shit happens, you know. And this will be my biggest test and challenge in my life I think. I cannot stay with my lover, and I musn't meet with him and I do not know when can I see him with my eye again. So I am little bit frustrated now, but I think that this could be happen again if he go out to abroad for a longer period. And we are keeping in touch trough the facebook messenger every day.

It is weird, but I wanted to remembered the St. Patrick's Day more, than my country's National day (15th of March). Maybe because my ancient roots are effected more my lifestyle and the way of thinking about the world, than my nationality. So I am really upset that I could not go to the Irish festival and can not celebrate with my celtic love. He tought everything about this culture he is a druid with german roots. And I think I became a celtic person too or before we met, I was because I am recognized in myself many different quality, which is not pass to my nationality. I am used to be protestant and religious, but my country used the religion to seperate the people for example chistianity to not help the others like refuggees or migrants, who try to escape from wars and climate crisis.

This is unacceptable for me so I opened my brain and heart for the new view and this direction shows the celtic path, to be a different, to be a member of an activist, save our Earth and Enviroment and fight for human rights. I walked on a very long way to be who I am now. To I know everybody's life is important and we need to change. Maybe this is the Time we waited for.

Live well: Which means is nowadays to be rich and wealth. But this is a huge mistake and I think we are going to learn that, what is WELL mean exactly. We have to live again well in a harmonic way with the enviroment and nature. To respect our nature and repair, what we can do as soon as possible to repair the ecological system.

Laugh often: I think this is obvious, but it focus on your human connections, enjoy your life with full of energy, have experiencies and do not be afraid of challenges. Honestly this not very easy for me if we know the truth and see the mistakes with our systems and civilization. To be positive even if you know the truth. I like the good humor, one of the best thing in my partner. He is a very funny guy and makes me laugh much. But this time we need to give smile and kind instead of anger to everybody.

Love much: I am not a romantic person, but I like love, this a natural thing in humans, and love can heal many wounds. But I have never love myself. I thought this is selfish and egoism. I look my mistakes when I see myself in the mirror not just the my skin or weight. I look many fears and anxiety of my gender because I am human, heterosexual woman, but I fear to live the woman's life fully, because it is not protected. I am only a tool for many other men, if they try to get to touch me. And this  fear is keeping up to not live and behave like a woman. I am not wearing skirt instead of on special events, I do not use make up and so on to protect myself from the danger. I am hidden myself and fight for the real women's rights.

But I can love. Moreover I really feel something special for others, (strangers or friends) who suffers. I feel their pains and fears and I do not know why. I can not sleep well for years. And this is the time to spread theese feelings for others, people, animals, trees, nature, society, civilization. Of course I worried about my lover too, our future life together, wedding, family everything is in the air now.

"In this time and in this hour call upon the ancient power...." (Charmed), because we run out of time to start the better world, if we do not want to loose everybody.

I really hope that on the next St. Patrick's Day I could enjoyed the festival again together, laugh much and dance, and drink a Gunieese and sing to feel myself free again in a better place. To every person, who have to be at home now I would wish patience and love to care for each other. This is the best way to protect yourself and the others and this is our biggest responsibility in this time.